Childhood dream or future reality?

Man when I was a kid back in DR still running around my house barefoot, I always dreamed of being able to live lavishly. I mean like owning 10 cars, houses pretty much all over the world, having a boat, etc. Nows a different story, its so hard letting go as simple and as childish as those dreams may seem, part of me sees people doing this daily, at least what they want to show on TV. All these superstars just living "the dream". I don't want to settle getting an average job, making average money just to get by. That's fucking whack. So I'm aiming higher than that. I'm not even talking about getting superstar money, but I'm damn sure going to be doing better than just getting by, I'm going to own my own range, rover that is, and I'm even going as far to say I want my own boat. Not a yatch, I still think real and I doubt, ill be making money like that (not to put any limitations on my own will to achieve anything, but If I do try to buy one it will be WAY down the line). I hate it when people just settle for working at Burlington coat factory as a sales person forever, or become a garbage man. To me those jobs are like stepping stones, use them to jump into a better career. Its hard, and it takes a lot of work to be able to break the chains that hold you down (being lazy, low self esteem, having others telling you that you can't) just keep in mind its always for you and as much support and inspiration you can get from others, you have to make the right move.

Faces!

The face reportedly takes more muscles to smile, than it does to frown. And for me, my face muscles always seem to be flexing! Everything shows on my face, if I'm sad, happy, angry, tired, hurt, it's on my face. I wish I could turn it off sometimes. My girlfriend hates it sometimes because I often look more upset than what I really am. And it can get misinterpreted as being upset, when I'm actually just extremely tired (don't ask me how but if I'm tired that's the way I look). People at work get my "I'm-only-smiling-because-i'm-getting-paid-face" and often times my hangover face, and man the tourists can't tell the difference at all lol. Buuuuuuut I also have the smiles when I am happy or having a good day (or had coffee lol) just like anybody else! Only a few people get to see the truly angry face, I'm usually calm and collected. At my job I get a lot of questionable people which I CANT turn away from and refuse to help (aside from being too nice) it's my job, which get to see the stank face. And a couple of people have seen the sad face, which to this day I kind of wish I could take it back but what's done is done! I don't regret it, just wish the outcome would of been different, but that's another story!

I'll have a samuel adams...no wait? Gimme something new!

Without sounding like an alky, which I'm not btw, I've got to say It takes a lot of getting used to if your not into beer to try or at least it takes a lot of will power to try new flavors (especially when your spending money on it) I've decided that If I'm going to have a beer or two to chill for the night, I'm expanding my horizons. No longer will I stick to the classic corona or budweiser. So far I've tried Amstel light, Guinness, Baltika(Russian, dead ass this tasted like Vodka), Del Sol(Mexican), of course Old English, Steel Reserve. I got to stay breaking from the norm is really refreshing, and these other beers still taste better than keystone light, that's for emergencys when your low on cash, or feeling cheap, and there's a lot of people but I won't do it to myself anymore! One beer, two beers, four beers more....eight beers aaaaaaaaaand damn I think I'm done.

Upset or Happy? Im just confused

Classes ended, my summer begins. I've got the idea in my head to take up summer courses, and infact I do register myself AND change my work schedule, except one big problem, I have absolutely no way of paying for them! Lol You'd think I would of had that part figured out before anything else...Ok no biggie I'll just change my work schedule and cake it this summer and save some money too. Then the reality of the recession smacks me across the face harder than the girlfriend smacked that dude in Shutter (well maybe not that hard, the whole theater felt that smack when she hit him LOL) Buuuuuuut now they tell me, after I have to jump through flaming hoops to get back my original summer hours that I can't work more than 19 hours a week....WTF? I shit 19 hours a week, that's not nearly enough money to have an enjoyable summer!!....So in order to not have a heart attack I think of this in a positive way, how can I do that you say? I don't know, maybe I've had a few bad brownies lately, maybe I realized that life is about as negative as you make it. I just see it now as not having to spend as much time at work anymore dealing with rude ass people telling me they're taxes pay my check,when they don't get what they want....GUESS WHAT DUMBASS? I PAY TAXES TOO /end mini rant, and also to me it means spending more time doing the things that I want to do, which by the looks of it, I'm going to have a lot of time for that.