The Gym

Man I LOVE going to the gym, can't shake the feeling like a junkie on withdrawal...If anybody seen the Arnold documentary when he talks about the "pump" like an orgasm everytime he works out, well it's no where near like what I get from my girl but waaaaay below it, alright I don't know wtf Arnold was smoking when he made that comparison but you get the pump when the muscle you just worked out feels real tight. To some, like me, this is a cool feeling.

I love walking into any gym, doesn't matter if its Omni fitness, Ballys Fitness, my current college gym, and noticing a few things. With an over sized shirt, I blend in with the wall paint, I'm basically invisible, I like these days sometimes. Their the days when I'm at the gym just to workout and not socialize (ha that's like going to the bar and not drinking...) A lot of the times it's also because don't notice it as well, because I know when I go to the gym, it's to WORKOUT, I'm already in a relationship, im not going to the gym to look for a girl, so I dont give a shit what I look like! A lot of the times I look like a caveman, unshaven with a serious look on my face.

THEN, flip the tape over to side B, you got the days when I go in with a form fitting shirt/wife beater and people look at me like I'm a dangerous escaped convict that's ate the iron instead of lifted them for the time he was in there, like "LOCK THAT MF'er BACK IN THERE!" (Guess which one I like more lol) Everybody in there stares, whether it's because they envy my genetics, or theyre amazed at how the human body can shape itself over time with proper training, i'll never know (until they tell me which has happened in the Gym, and can be quite awkward if not done properly lol) It's funny how at the beginning when I started lifting just for me and was still fat, everybody just passed me on and saw me at only that stage in my life. Let me explain, because I mean when I see people on the treadmill I don't say "run tubby cuz you need this more than me". Quite the opposite, because all people need is encouragement, and they're ready to jump start the fitness commitment they've been looking for and dint know they had in them. My girlfriend told me one day "Think about how many random people you've inspired to start working out" This got me thinking, because even if its just one person, well that in itself would be pretty cool to me.

Safe Haven
I was talking to my barber today and damn this dude is MAD stressed, I was just hoping the shit dint come out on my hairline or else there would of been two pissed people in the barbershop today. I told him that (you) need a place in your life where you can get away from every day stress, even if its only for fifteen minutes. Whether its at a basketball court, church, hell if going shopping calms you down do it! Have a spot that calms you down and relaxes you, it doesn't matter where. For me, that's the gym, don't call me, don't text me, and definitely don't rush me! Having a place like this makes it easier to face the challenges that life throws at me and better able to handle certain situations. I can stay in there for hours upon hours lol, I get labeled a "Gym Rat" but it's MY VICE! Smoke, drink, have sex, get as many piercings & tattoos as you'd like, I wont judge, everybody has a vice. As long as you have your "thing" so to speak, just find a way that it benefits you more than it does harm, because trust me, there's always some way you can always drop that dumbbell on your toe, or crush your fingers (fortunately for me I've done both) and put you out of commission for a while, or permanently because there are some things you cant recover from. But the ones that allow you to do, when it's time, visualize coming back, Bigger, Better and Stronger. Like that saying, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. I know I don't have to spell it out but since Im going on the Gym theme here, just use my metaphor for a lot of things in life, I know my readers are smart.

Time for some action!

Man, my cousin just graduated from Columbia University...it's a REAL wake up call. He only started a year before so I SHOULD be leaving school next year...but i'm stuck in education Limbo right now, damn it's so hard but the solutions are all there waiting for me to just take hold of them. I can't understand it myself why I just can't do what I'm supposed to do. Any ideas? Anybody?

I'm Freeeeeee!!!

Finally I'm freeeee! Fucking corporate America, no longer will I be your slave. To think, all it took was one swipe and you had me by the balls(pausepolice) You Gift wrapped and put a pretty little bow in a box of lies and deceit with my name on it. I shouldn't be surprised though, deception is your best skill. Until next time...actually fuck that ill be using my debit card from now on.